Intimacy With God
Sweet Fellowship With Jesus
The inside of the card says,
Kelli is a nickname that my family has called me since birth, as well as long-time friends. I go by “Kelli” most of the time. I go by my legal name Kathleen outside of my family. Kelli means “warrior maiden” and Kathleen means “pure, gentle” — what a combination of names!
Song of Solomon 1:2-4 NIV
2 Let Him kiss me with the kisses of His mouth — for Your love is more
delightful than wine.
3 Pleasing is the fragrance of Your perfumes (fragrant ointment or oil);
Your name is like perfume poured out. No wonder the maidens love You!
4 Take me away with You — let us hurry! Let the King bring me into His
chambers. We rejoice and delight in You; we will praise Your love more than
wine. How right they are to adore You!
In 1993 I began attending a women’s Bible Study in the Alamo/Danville
area of Northern California. A woman from my church opened up her home. She had
been healed of lupus and got her life back after being sick for so long. She
began to teach Bible Studies in her home.
Women from my church, as well as women from many other churches in the
area were drawn to this inter-denominational Bible Study. Usually anywhere from
30-40 women showed up. On a few occasions she hosted a major speaker, such as
Barbara Wentroble, and the house was packed like sardines with a LOT of women
and men, around 100 people seated in folding chairs in the family room, living
room, kitchen, dining room, hallway, foyer (her husband owned a business and
they had a very large home).
This was my first experience to be in an environment where women of all
economic backgrounds worshiped together and became friends — from the poor
college student to the multi-millionaire, and those inbetween. I came to
realize that regardless of economic status, that we all shared common struggles
— such as health issues, dealing with family relationships, many women were in
unhappy marital situations or had problems with rebellious children. We all
dealt with similar “women’s issues” (insecurities, the longing to be loved, the
myriad of needs in a woman’s heart, shame from past failures, rejection issues,
etc). Men deal with these things too and have very tender hearts.
At this Bible Study we studied the Word, prayed, and worshiped in song
together, but the primary focus was on learning about intimacy with Jesus
Christ. (That is where I learned how to make a glory hoop … a glory hoop has
glittery streamers, and the purpose is for beauty to worship the Lord with, to
dance before the Lord with. I made mine with a rainbow pattern, to represent
God’s faithfulness in fulfilling His promises.)
I was in an atmosphere where we were all in one accord all wanting the
same thing: to know Jesus better and to know Him in a more intimate way. I’m
referring to intimacy in spirit and soul, because our marriage to Christ is
spiritual, not of this world (the flesh). Marriage of this earth is [intended
to be] a picture of Christ and the Church (Ephesians 5:21-33). The Apostle Paul
said it is a mystery … concerning Christ and the Church (Eph 5:32).
There are levels of intimacy with Jesus: 1) friendship with the Lord 2)
Divine romance with the King of kings and Lord of lords 3) times of making love
to the Lord (I'm talking about in spirit, not flesh) … usually that 3rd level
of intimacy occurs during worship. And I get so irritated, at home, if someone
walks in the room at that moment during an intimate moment with the Lord. I
feel like they have invaded our (Jesus and my) privacy.
At this Bible Study we learned about becoming that Bride that Jesus is
looking for, without spot and wrinkle. Revelation 19:7-9 (AMP) says:
7 Let us rejoice and shout for joy [exulting and triumphant]! Let us
celebrate and ascribe to Him glory and honor, for the marriage of the Lamb [at
last] has come, and His bride has prepared herself.
8 She has been permitted to dress in fine (radiant) linen, dazzling and
white — for the fine linen is (signifies, represents) the righteousness (the
upright, just, and godly living, deeds, and conduct, and right standing with
God) of the saints (God's holy people).
9 Then [the angel] said to me, Write this down: Blessed (happy, to be
envied) are those who are summoned (invited, called) to the marriage supper of
the Lamb.
Revelation 22:17 (NKJV) says, “And the Spirit and the bride say, “Come!”
And let him who hears say, “Come!” And let him who thirsts come. Whoever
desires, let him take the water of life freely.”
For one particular meeting, we met at another woman’s house in San
Ramon, the city next to Alamo/Danville. This meeting was a little different
than the Bible Studies. It was a special event where every woman (who wanted to
participate) would share with the group, in some aspect, about their love for
Jesus (to whatever level they felt comfortable).
For example, two women did a skit depicting Mary pouring oil on Jesus’
feet and just sitting at His feet soaking in every one of His words (while
Martha was busy serving). There’s a time to serve and a time to just sit at the
Lord’s feet.
Others sang a song, wrote a love poem to Jesus, did a choreographed
dance before the Lord — everyone had a different, and unique, way of expressing
their love for Christ.
I brought a card I had found and read it to the group and then sang a
love song about Jesus. I can’t even remember what song it was. Afterwards we
had a time of fellowship, each woman had brought some kind of food dish to
share.
It was during the early to mid 1990’s that the Lord used many teachers
to teach me about intimacy with God — loving Him with your whole heart, soul,
mind and strength (some of these teachers were members from my church, guest
speakers who came to my church, and other teachers in the Body of Christ on
Christian television, or books by Christian authors). I studied workbooks about
Christ and the Church depicted in the Song of Solomon.
The main keys (at least for me), I learned, to intimacy with God are
communion through worship, prayer and knowing Him through His Word.
This was such a time of healing in my life because in the natural I had
no husband to love, or be loved by. I longed to be married but it wasn’t the
Father’s timing. I also dealt with the grief of “empty arms” because I wanted
to have children. No husband meant no children (being single and adopting was
not an option in my thinking).
I was so emotionally messed up and had so many insecurities. I struggled
with a spirit of rejection. The Lord taught me that He could become my All in
All. My earthly husband, who God promised, would be a blessing to my life and I
would experience more healing, but an earthly husband was never to take the
place of Jesus.
Jesus is the only One who could understand me fully, love me
unconditionally, and make provision for every need to be met. He’s the only one
who could heal the wounds in my soul, restore my broken heart, give me the oil
of joy for mourning, and make me whole and complete.
Colossians 2:10 says that we are complete in Him (Christ).
It is God's will that no one should perish (end up in hell), but that ALL should come to repentance.
For God so loved this world that He gave His only begotton Son, that whosoever believes in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
God did not send His Son into this world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him would be saved.
The thief (Satan the devil) comes only for to kill, steal and destroy. But Jesus has come to give us life, and life more abundantly, until it overflows.
I urge you to come to the Cross today and receive Jesus as your Savior and Lord. He will wash away all your sins and make you as clean and white as fresh snow.
Just pray this prayer and mean it with your heart:
Dear Lord Jesus (if you are not able to call him Lord yet, then just say "Jesus")
I receive You as my Savior and Lord. I give my life over to You. I believe that You died and rose again, and that if I call on the Name of the Lord I shall be saved.
I accept you into my heart right now, and confess that You are Lord and have risen from the dead and forever live to make intercession for me.
Thank You for washing my heart pure and clean and making me whole, and for giving me peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.
Thank You that now I am a new creature in Christ Jesus. The old has gone and the new has come.
And there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh (carnality and sin), but walk after the Spirit. In Jesus' Name, Amen.
If you prayed this prayer, I believe you got born again and are now heaven bound and will be with the Lord forever and have eternal life. Your sins are now forgiven. You are accepted in the Beloved.
I would encourage you to find a good Bible based local church to help you grow in your faith, to learn the Word of God, to praise and worship Him, and to have fellowship with the saints.
Serving Christ is the best decision you will ever make.
God bless you!!!